I generally don't feel this way until Christmastime, but I'm quite down-in-the-dumps today. It's Easter Sunday, my husband is at work, our friends won't be coming over for Sunday dinner since they're having Easter dinner with their family (which is just as well, because I'd be crappy company today - they invited me to come along, but I declined for that reason), and my mom told me that Grandma decided not to have Easter this year.
I come from a family where - despite how dysfunctional we might be at times - we'd always get together for every birthday and holiday. As the grandchildren (i.e., me, my sister and cousins) got older, some of the birthdays and holidays would be combined - for instance, my dad, one aunt and one uncle celebrate late June/early July birthdays, so we combined them with 4th of July. My mom and another aunt have birthdays in late March and mid-April, so we'd celebrate them at Easter. But this year, as far my extended family is concerned, there is no Easter.
So while I'm sad enough that I have no family around me this Easter, that sadness is compounded by the knowledge that even if I was with my family this Easter, there's no Easter dinner to go to, anyway.
Sigh.
Posted by beenie at April 16, 2006 05:44 PM