Pity party
I just mailed my mom's 50th birthday present this morning. She's never had a piece of jewelry with her birthstone in it, but she's always wanted one. Problem is, she'd never think to buy one for herself, and I'm always broke (don't even ask about my dad - I don't think he knows she's always wanted one). But this year, I remembered to save up some money and voila! I got her an aquamarine pendant.
As excited as I am that I can finally get my mom something she's wanted and deserved for some time now, it's much consolation considering I was supposed to actually BE there for her birthday. :( By the time I get out there for Christmas, it will be just about the longest I've gone ithout seeing my family since I moved to WI. The longest thus far was from Christmas 1998 to Easter 2000, about 16 months. Last time I saw my family was August 2002, next time I'll see them is December 2003. Also 16 months.
{{{sigh}}} It sucks to live paycheck-to-paycheck. Hopefully Bryan will find a "new and improved" job soon. We'll still be in our lease until August, so no matter where he works I'll still be spending $40 a week on gas for my 110-mile round trip to work, but maybe he'll find something either closer or the same distance that pays decently so we can save up a little. Or maybe he'll find something further away, but still better-paying so that we can save up a little. Or maybe he'll find something so close to my job that we can carpool and eliminate his gas expenditure and save some wear-and-tear on his 11-year-old-with-200,000-miles-on-it car. All I know is that as much as I love our apartment, I'm sick of losing two hours of my day to the highway, I'm sick of driving an hour each way so I can make decent money but not have our financial picture not get much brighter, I'm sick of Bryan being treated like crap and vastly underpaid by his current employer... And I want to move to Madison so I can reclaim part of my day.
Sorry for the pity party - I needed to get that out.
Posted by beenie at March 22, 2003 02:17 PM